So I’m sitting here in front of this screen again and its well past the eleven o’clock hour. The tv is going. I’m listening to tunes bustin down a pot of Starbucks and I’m bored as hell wonderin who’s sneaking around inside of this little gray box of mine. And right when I’m thinking this, some guy comes on TV talkin about internet addiction and its damning effects on the human psyche. He said as I recall that forming bonds with people that we don’t actually know via the internet, is a dangerous game, in the sense that we build for ourselves a false sense of security thinking that we can actually trust the other person at the other end of this little rainbow of ours. And that we might actually give out sensitive information about ourselves to people that we don’t really know. and he even threw out the word Blog as I recall.



Well some of that may be a genuine concern I suppose, if someone where actually that stupid to give out sensitive information to a complete stranger. Hell I know That I don’t live around any of the people on the Blogstream, and I also know what I can and can’t tell people, but that doesn’t mean that I need to totally abandon all sense of trust that I have developed here in the past two years with certain individuals. This is where I come to let off steam.. This is where I come to create.. To think.. To find other people who are sitting in front of their little gray boxes wonderin if they’ve revealed too much to the person at the other end of the Rainbow. Here I know where the line is, I know it top to the bottom, and I don’t cross it.. ever.



So with that little part of me that remains tucked safely away and out of reach, here I come.. Spirit flying.. Wings spread and eyes wide open.. Looking for god only knows what. Love?.. Life?.. Laughter?.. Or perhaps its the pursuit of some twisted happiness that I can’t quite get my hands around in the physical realm. What’s the rub of this place? Is it magic? Doubtful.. Is it metaphysical?.. Probably not.. So what then? What keeps bringing me and countless others back to this place. Every day or so.. Starting all over again.. At the very top.. The very beginning staring at a blank page waiting for the words to Magically present themselves in the form of a post. What is it?



Well it has Occurred to me that it may very well be an addiction, but perhaps not under the definition that some people might become accustomed to. Ok now, speaking from my own observations of other people here on the Stream as well as my own behavior, I think that perhaps the most amazing thing about the internet, As a whole, the Blogstream not withstanding, is that it allows the traveler here, the suspension of disbelief. Here you can do practically anything that you wish. Here you can express yourself, with all of your anger.. With all of your love.. With as much passion or lack thereof as your real life may reflect. Here we can be Dragons.. Tigers.. Cats.. Anything your imagination will allow..



I have known Pranksters here, Icemen, trainmen, and amazing women that I might never have known otherwise, yes I have experienced magic here, and even shared in some of that suspension of disbelief, if only for a second, and allowed it to carry me away from this physical place. Yes the internet, more importantly the Blogstream, has been a wonderful over all experience for me, and other like minded individuals. The Internet? Yes it has its allure.. But as with anything else, there are shadows here.. Where the monsters of the real world come to hide in. Do not think that bad things cannot happen to you here.. Oh yes anon. there be treachery afoot! The smartest thing, perhaps the most important thing about this place to remember is, regardless of the level of fantasy that you choose to engage in, regardless of how safe that you think you are.. The consequences of your actions here, can be and most often are, very real.

~Scratch

The List..

Barenaked ladies - Its all been done / one week / pinch me.
Blind Melon - No Rain.
Bush - The people that we love.
Coldplay - Clocks.
Collective Soul - shine.
Dave Matthews - Crush.
Dishwalla - Counting blue Cars.
Fastball - The Way.
Incubus - Love Hurts / Drive.
Jack Johnson - Better Together.
Jason Mraz - The Remedy.
John Mayer - Bigger Than My Body / Neon / Clarity.
Lifehouse - Breathing / Only One / Blind.
Linkin Park - Numb.
Live. - I Alone / Lightning Crashes.
Lost Prophets - Everybody’s screaming!!.
Matchbox Twenty - Push / Unwell.
Nirvana - Come as you are / Heart Shaped Box.
Pearl Jam - Even Flow / Jeremy.
Pink - Just like a pill.
Placebo - Every You, Every Me / The Bitter End.
Radiohead - Karma Police / Creep / Paranoid Android.
Rage Against The Machine - Wake Up.
Sister Hazel - Your Winter.
Sound garden - Black hole sun.
Stone Temple Pilots - Plush.
The Goo Goo Dolls - Iris / Let Love In.
Train - I Am / All American Girl / My Private Nation.
Uncle Kracker - Keep It Comin’

Have a great Saturday night!!

~Scratch~

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For me it has been some kind of strange week to say the least, seems like since Monday morning I haven’t quite had my feet under me just right all week. From the first second I got to work on Monday it seems like I had to push myself more than usual to get even the simplest tasks accomplished. No energy to speak of at all, I mean I worked as hard as I could, but it just seemed as though I was one step behind of everything that was going on. And when I got home it didn’t get any better all I felt like doing was sleeping. And the frosting on this cake of a week came when my sister from Montana called to break the news to me that our nephew in Washington State had passed away from some disease that he’d gotten while he was in the Air Force, it was my brother Bucks second to the oldest son Ernie. While tonight I seem to be in better spirits and some of my energy has returned, I am still not sure what I should be feeling right now, I haven’t heard from that part of the family yet, and none of Ernie’s brothers have tried to contact me. although they told my oldest brother who also lives in Nevada. perhaps I will try to be patient, and see if any of them say anything, I Tried to reach them but have hit nothing but air. So I will wait and see what happens on that front. For now I am trying to just take a few deep breaths, it just feels good to have my feet back under me. For now at least.

~Scratch~

A man died and was waiting at the pearly gates while St. Peter leafed through his big book to see if the guy was worthy. St. Peter went through the book several times, Furrowed his brow, and said to the guy, “You know, I can’t see that you ever did anything really bad in your life, but you never did anything really good either. If you can point to even one really good deed you’ve done , you’re in.”

The fellow thought for a moment, and said, “Yeah, there was one time when I was driving down the highway and saw a giant group of bikers assaulting this poor girl. I slowed down my car to see what was going on, and sure enough, there they were about fifty of them, tormenting this terrified young woman. Infuriated, I got out of my car, grabbed a tire iron out of my trunk, and walked up to the leader of this gang, a huge white guy with a studded leather Jacket and a chain running from his nose to his ear.”

St. Peter thoroughly engrossed in the mans story was almost speechless. “Wow.. What happened next?”
“As I walked up to the leader, the rest of the gang formed a circle around me. So I ripped the leader’s chain off his face and smashed him over the head with the tire iron and laid him out. Then I turned and yelled at the rest of the gang, ‘leave this poor innocent girl alone! You’re all a bunch of sick deranged animals! Now go home before I teach you all a lesson in pain!”
St. peter now feverishly leafed through his big book once again.. “ Wow! Really? But I don’t see it in my book.. When did this Happen?”
The man shook his head sadly.
“About two minutes ago.”

Hope you all have a great Sunday..

~Scratch.~

Ok so I'm sitting here at the computer tonight and I came across some more off the wall short stories that I did so I've been editing them all afternoon.. well there was that and I got hooked on a game of Big Kahuna Reef.. (Long Story, I won't go into it I promise.) so I'm thinking.. what am I forgetting to do?.. so I thinking no.. I took out the trash... No.. I'm doing the laundry.. and then... OH CHIT !! ITS Saturday night almost!! I'm supposed to put up some tunes!!.. well ok.. you got me.. I forgot. so I threw together a new list from Finetune but I didn't have time to do a list of contents. There's no theme to it, its just I bunch of tunes that I really got into.. so I hope you enjoy.. Laters.. I have some more editing to do.. I check back in in a bit.. have a rockin Saturday!